fuzz...

These days I don't have much to blog about. I get on every night, while the kids are settling down, but I stare at the screen hoping something funny comes to mind. Nothing. I've been tired these days, emotionally and physically. I have lots going on in my head, swirling around like gray fuzz. I feel lost and helpless.

My hubby is comforting and the kids always put a smile on my face, but there are things in my life I can't fix and I can't control. I'm a control freak. Type A personality all the way. I'm a mom. I can always fix things, right? Make it better. Take control.

No. No control. No quick fix. Scared. Sad. Worried. Gray fuzz.

happy valentines day...

will you be my valentine?

i'm a dork, really...

My hubby is leaving for San Antonio tomorrow for TMEA. It's a music conference for teacher's and other musical people. Three days without Michael scares the hell out of me. Really. Two kids all by myself? I have no confidence in getting two kids ready in the morning by myself, so I'm going to stay at my parents for two nights. Lame, I know. But I'm also scared about being "alone" in the house. My dog is about the size of a large rat and I don't know how to use the gun we have. I know. I'm 32, married with two kids, and staying at my parents cause I'm scared. I'm a dork, really.

and one more makes three...

We decided to add another member to our family this weekend. We've been talking about it for a LONG time and discussing whether or not we could afford to have one. The expenses, the time, the care, the love. Well, we decided that "yes" we could do this and how fun life will be with another member. We can take her to Oliver and Lennon's sport activities, to the playground, and we can share in all the special moments a family shares together.

Of course, we don't have to wait 9 months for this baby, because we've decided to adopt. So, on Friday we went decided on a baby, filled out all the necessary paperwork and....here she is....

Our baby...D40